No One By My Side !

Lama tak update blog laaa.

Tapi bila dah hidup sorang2 macam nie blog la yang jadi teman atau pendengar

setia pada setiap luahan hati saya.

Feel so fucking bad when am sitting all alone,

Nobody by my side.

Don't know what to do.

Whatever it is I still will fight this life and move on.

Like i always say , i can smile.hee :) even without you !

Masih bersyukur sebab masih ade lagi yang KENAL aku.

I feel like a new kid in the neighborhood.

Serious shit la guys.

What should i do now?
Cry? NEVER!
Sit alone in the park ? NOT AGAIN.

What else?
Do you know how it feels when you are so fucking alone?

Everyone has gone in their separate ways and there's no use in remembering the past days because yesterday was always a different day !

Anyways Merry X'mas Everyone.

Can't wait for 2012 !
How is it gonna be next year?
Hope everything will be fine :))

Take Care Every One !

You don't know how it feels without a best friend by your side.

People have thousands of best friends but they are happy,
I have only one best friend but i have thousands of problems with him.
You don't know how it feels now.
Seriously you don't know how fucking bad it feels right now!

Few months back i was sitting on the same spot and crying everything out alone because of a girl.
Now am sitting at the exact same spot and crying everything out because of a best friend.

I can get a thousand girls if my gf leaves me,
but you are the one and only best buddy that i have,
i dont think someone else can replace you.

You are not even looking at my eyes when you're talking to me,
that bad i am in your eyes, isit?

Sitting alone at the park and reminicing the up's and down's we went through together.
I seriously don't fucking know what to do.
FUCK , i don't know what am i doing right now.

I told my dad that You and I had a fight and not even talking.
He said maybe its for our own good.
Maybe everything will be okay sooner or later.
but this is not good weyhhh.
It fucking hurtz.



I WISH,
MAYBE SOMEDAY WE'LL WAKE UP AND IT WILL ALL JUST BE A DREAM.

I Know I Can Do It Again.

I don't wanna say much in this entry..
It's just that i lost hope and trust in my Friends and my so called Girl.
But not in myself.
I went through this same shit few years back
and now am going through it all over again.
Back then, i fought so hard to get outta this shit and finally i recovered.
Now i don't think it's impossible for me to do it for the second time.

You guys don't have to care about me,
you guys don't have to care about whatever fuck i'm thinking about you.
Just go on with your lifes.
And STAY OUTTA MY LIFE, IT AIN'T YOUR BUSINESS.
I WONT LET SOME COWARDS FUCK MY WORLD UP!


NO MORE TRUST,NO MORE FRUST !

From here on,
EVERYTHING WILL CHANGE !
hell jyeahhhhh !

AKU TERASA DALAM BHAIII !

Ini bukan satu sindiran tapi suatu luahan hati :/

Memang betul persahabatan itu lebih tinggi nilainya daripada cinta tapi seperti mana kita menjaga kekasih kita seperti itulah kita harus menjaga seorang sahabat.
Dalam percintaan jika terdapat salah faham akan mencalarkan hubungan sesama sendiri, samalah juga dalam persahabatan.
Harap maaf jika terkasar bahasa atau tersilap kata.


Aku tak perlu kan seorang sahabat yang tidak tahu ape erti persahabatan.
Sebagai seorang kawan, aku akan cuba faham kau dan tolong kau.
Itu lah yang aku buat selama ini.
Tapi kau kena ingatlah aku kawan kau bukan kuli kau.
Jujur kata 'AKU TERASA DALAM BHAIII.'
Aku tak tahu kau ade niat ke tak tapi kalau aku boleh faham perasaan kau kenapa kau tak boleh. YOU OWN A SPECIAL SPOT IN MY HEART, BROTHER BUT SEMAKIN HARI SEMAKIN TERASA AKU DENGAN PERANGAI KAU.
Sumpah tak pernah aku cakap dekat sesiapapun yang kau nie kawan aku sebab aku selalu cakap kau dengan aku dah macam adik-beradik aku.
Aku tak pernah berkira dengan kau walau ape pun.
Bukan nak ungkit tapi nak sedarkan kau.


Orang yang bercinta kalau ade masalah selalunya frust tapi kalau kawan-kawan ade masalah dalam persahabatan SAKIT HATI lah.
Bukan senang nak dapat seorang kawan yang sentiasa bersama tapi sekarang senang-senang dah ada masalah antara kita.Aku nasihat kau lah, kalau ada masalah tanya aku atau datang cakap dengan aku.
Jangan libatkan orang ketiga dan rosakkan lagi hubungan kita..
Berterus-terang dan membuat keputusan adalah sikap yang matang.
Sejak aku tak bertegur sangat dengan kau nie, hidup aku dah banyak berubah tapi yang penting aku tak benci kau.
Aku harap kau faham,
Entry nie bukan nak besarkan isu tapi untuk luahkan apa yang ada dalam hati aku.
Thanks and Sorry again kalau terkasar bahasa atau tersilap kata.



PERSAHABATAN YANG BENAR TIDAK BOLEH DIBELI MAHUPUN DIPAKSA.

I can smile. heeee:) Even without you.

I've learnt to smile :D

Wasted alotsa energy crying for you.

and now, even without you...

I CAN SMILE. heeeeeeee:)

Was dying for your love.

But you seemed not to care about it.

I told you before that i couldn't love anyone else like how i loved you.

NOW I TARIK BALIK.

i think, i can love someone else more than i loved you !

Now there is nothing between you and me.

we are friends.. FACEBOOK friends.

thats all.

SEMOGA BAHAGIA MY DEAR FRIEND !

Feeling it all over again.PERHAPS, I am falling for her.

Perhaps, i am falling for the girl whom i saw at a wedding.
I don't know whether she likes me or not.
But she is being nice to me.
Plus, everyone in my family knows her and everyone in her family knows me.
maybe thats the biggest problem for me.
The second problem is.....
SHE IS OLDER THAN ME.
not againnnnnnnnnn. haha.

But the thing is....
when you are in love, you will have some kinda FEELINGS right?
i don't know how to explain.
but i just feel like there's something special about her.

Whatever it is.
who cares..
i like her, so what?
but for now am not gonna say anything to her.
let her get to know me 1st.
then will go for the next move!

For now ill just keep on text'ing her.
thats the only wayyyyy.



I LOVE THAT PAKISTANI GIRL <3 HAHA.

Jangan Cari Masalah, Kawan2.

Bukan nak cakap besar la.
tapi dulu time aku kaki gado, ramai yang 'goyang' ngan aku.
sbb time tue i got nothing to lose.
i wasn't affraid of anything.

Tapi sekarang semua dah lain.
aku dah ade perasaan takut MATI.
Walaupun ramai yang CARI PASAL dengan aku.
entah kenape, aku memang takde keberanian nak pukul dorang skng.
maybe sbb aku dah banyak berubah sejak dulu.
ataupun sebab aku takut orang yang aku sayang jadi mangsa utk kelakuan aku.

Ape pun yang jadi,
aku tak nak kembali ke hidup yang umpama neraka tue.

Sekarang, aku ada semua yang aku nak.
aku just tak nak semua yang aku ada tue HILANG mcm tue je.

i just wanna be a normal person like how everyone is.
takpe laa kalau kaw nak cakap aku pengecut ke ape ke.
as long as aku happy.
orang yang aku sayang pun happy kan?

tapi takde laa sampai lu mau naik atas wa punye kepala and wa mau dok diam.
waa memang dah senyap skang.
blakang setan tetap adaa.
sbb tue la orang ckp jadi jahat senang.

btw bukan senang nak jadi orang baik yang dihormati orang lain.
so jangan lah rosakkan hidup korang dengan gado2 nie.
ENDING korang tak dapat ape la ,kawan.
and ingat la.
ade orang yang lagi hebat dari kita.
ape pun boleh jadi kalau kita tak jaga diri kita.


take caree KAWAN2.

Sorry, FRIEND.

Saya tak tahu la kenapa, tapi saya rasa saya tak nak bermusuhan dengan awak.
Setiap kali saya online saya mesti cari awak dulu.
Nak mintak maaf punye pasal.
Tapi saya takut awak ignore saya je.
and setiap kali nak send ape2 kat awak, saya teragak2.
For sure you know how i feel ryte.
Saya tak tahu la apa yang jadi antara kita tue salah saya ke ataupun salah awak.
Tapi saya rasa macam nak mintak maaf kat awak.

I AM SORRY, FRIEND.

Saya mintak maaf sbb 'mengaib' kan awak.
Tapi semua yang jadi, dah jadi kenangan.
So i hope you'll forgive me.
And start being my FRIEND.
Kalau tak 'Wa kerat lu 18 baru lu tau erti penyesalan'.
HAHA. gurau k.

See You Soon, KAWAN LAMAA.

Pilih Kawan??

Satu topic pasal pilih kawan muncul dulu dalam hidup semua orang...
setahu aku la kan,
orang suruh kita pilih kawan supaya kita tak sesat...
i mean untuk hidup di jalan yang lurus kan?

TAPI, sekarang nie aku tgk RAMAI ORANG yang pilih kawan untuk kepentingan diri...

aku kenal duaTiga budak yang berkawan semata nak member belanja, nak backup and sume...
aku bukan ape arr...tapi SUMPAH aku tak mengaku kawan doe kalau orang mcm nie..
DUIT & BACKUP bole beli persahabatan yang ikhlas ke?
ada jugak yang budak yang sanggup tinggalkan member sbb dia gemok...takut motor rosak...wtf weyhh??
mentang2 la motor kaw baru tapi kalau kaw accident, motor ke member yg dtg tolong??
padahal guna motor takde la sampai kawasaki ninja....yang gune ninja pun tak poyo cam kaw...
pikir la weyhh...
orang suruh pilih kawan yang baik...tapi kaw nak pilih bentuk badan dulu...

banyak lagi jenis KAWAN (kononnyer) yg aku kenal....
nak sebut nama pun bole...tapi malas la nak aib kan korang...
aku sanggup bakar motor aku la untuk persahabatan yang ikhlas...
sanggup belanja kaw siang malam laa...
kalau betul niat BERKAWAN...and tau ERTI PERSAHABATAN..

Jadi Kawan2 semua...
Friendship is something very important to everyone...
please take care of you Friends in a good way...
jangan main bantai je hina depan2...
satgi kalau sampai time kaw memerlukan bantuan,sape yg tolong??
jangan sombong dengan apa yang kaw ada sekarang...
and jangan gunakan kawan demi kepentingan sendiri...

SOMETIMES, FRIENDS BECOME OUR FAMILY...
IT DEPENDS ON HOW TRUE YOU ARE AND HOW TRUE THEY ARE....
DONT WASTE THE GOOD ONES...

TO MY BEST FRIENDS...
I LOVE YOU GUYS...
AND I WILL BE BY YOUR SIDE ALL THE TIME...


tata~

Kecoh Betul..!

Disini Saya Ingin Menyatakan Bahawa Saya Tidak Kutuk Sesiapa Di Blog Ini....

about my last update on this blog ;

Okay...aku tak kutuk kaw pun...
aku just tulis pasal kaw....
aku tak MARK kaw as a "BAD GIRL"....
its just a story about how i loved you...
you should be proud actually to know that SOMEONE loved you so badly...
tapi kenapa perlu kaw take my update as a KUTUKKAN???
orang melayu kata,ORANG MELAYU LAA...
siapa makan cili ,dia rasa pedas!
maybe kaw sedar kot that u did something wrong...
sbb tue cepat2 kaw update status fb kaw kankankankan??

AND YOU DID MESSAGED ME RIGHT?
Kalau ada masalah dgn update aku...bagitahu jelaa...
apa guna kaw BALAS ape yang aku post kat blog di STATUS fb kaw?

and as you said,
a desicion has been made! HELL YEAH !
i dont need you anymore..
please la weyhh...
aku memang sayang kaw dulu...
bt aku pun ada perasaan...
dari dulu, aku je yang selalu salah ?
come on...dont be a kidd please...

BTW, i dont need your simpathy messages okay...
kalau kaw tak nak msg aku...
takpe aku terima hakikatnyer...
kalau kaw nak msg, aku tak halang...

tapi kalau sekadar nak jaga hati aku?
baik tak payah laa...
you cant do that anymore....

i still label you as a good woman, a friend...
dont spoil it please...
cukup la setakat ini...

YOU ARE ONE IN A MILLION...
THAT'S WHY YOU ARE THE SAME LIKE EVERYONE ELSE...
YOU ARE ONE IN A MILLION...
SAME AS THE REST...
catch my drift??


You have made a decision...
so stick to it...
kaw buat hal kaw,aku buat hal aku...
cukup ADIL...

IF YOU ARE LUCKY ENOUGH TO MEET ME AGAIN,
WE'LL SEE THEN....
GOODBYE....

Sayang Punye Pasal En?

Dalam hidup aku,
aku tak pernah sayang orang lain macam aku sayang kaw...
time kaw kena tinggal dgn bf kaw dulu...kaw sedih...
tapi aku entah dari mana boleh muncul dalam hidup kaw...
boleh cerahkan hidup kaw balik...macam2 aku buat...
hari2 aku call kaw...nak kaw hilang boring enn..
rumah kaw punye jauh,
hujan ke panas ke...aku redah je semata mata nak jumpe kaw...
aku sayang kaw...
makin lama, kaw pun mula jatuh hati kat aku...
pastu kita kapel...
tak pernah aku bazir duit & tenaga sampai mcm tue utk orang lain...
apa yg aku tahu ,aku just nak kaw happy je selalu..
kaw cakap kaw sayang aku....kaw cakap kaw takkan tinggalkan aku....
siap bagi tahu kat kawan2 kaw yang aku nie bakal suami kaw kan kan kan?
aku jaga hati kaw bagai nak mati...
tapi kaw makin lama makin buat hal...
buat hal mcm mane pun...aku tetap sayang kaw mcm biasa je enn?
pastu last kite kuar gi tgk wayang kat kawasan tempat tinggal kaw enn??
balik hujan2....haha...happy kot time tue...
aku jejak je kaki aku kat rumah...
kaw msg kata ada hal penting....
msg2 and msg...kaw ckp EX-BF kaw nak jumpe...
aku tak bagi sbb aku risau dia pukul kaw....
sbb sbelum korang break up pun dia pernah pukul kaw....
tapi kaw tak dengar pun kata2 aku....
kaw pegi jugak...
berjam2 aku tunggu, punye la risau...
satu msg pun kaw tk hantar...
ending kaw ckp dia merayu nak kaw balik...
kaw cakap KAW TAK NAK PIKIR PASAL TUE...
kalau kaw betul2 sayang aku, kenape kaw tak boleh cakap terus kaw tak nak dia?
aku buat rilek lagi...
start hari tue mcm2 jdi antara kita....
3-4 hari kaw tak contact aku...kata busy ngan exam...
AKU PUN PERCAYA...sayang punye pasal ennn....
pastu ade la gado2 kecik2...
pastu semua dah okay (aku igtkan dah okay)...
aku happy la time tue...
haihhhhzz...
kaw msg pagi2 dalam pukul8...
dengan senang hati nya kaw cakap 'AKU RINDU DIA LAA'..
aku elok2 tgh happy terus berkecai laa...
tapi aku tetap nak kaw happy jugak kan?
aku bagi kaw pergi balik kat dia kan?
kaw pun tinggal kan aku...
tapi kaw tahu ke hati aku sakit camane time tue??
TAK PUN...kaw siap bagitahu aku lagi yang kaw keluar dgn dia kan...
pastu kaw gado lagi dgn dia...
time kaw gado je...kaw cari aku lagi kan ?
aku buat kaw happy lagi...
walaupun aku tahu kaw takkan kapel dgn aku...tp i still did my best ryte?
and now, BILA KAW DAH OKAY DENGAN DIA...
kaw nak kurangkan hubungan dgn aku...aku faham maksud kaw tapi....
tujuh bulan, aku dah biasa hidup dgn kaw...msg2, call2 and syg2...
skang bila semua tue dah takde....
kepala aku sakit tau? asyik dok pikir pasal kaw je...
aku dah takde benda nak buat...
macam nak gila dah...
BELAKANG CERITA SAMPAI SKANG PUN KALAU KAW MSG,CALL,JUMPE
MESTI CAKAP I LOVE YOU AND GIVE KISSES...
sebagai kawan katakan...
and hari nie, satu msg? atleast misscall pun takde...
but i am still hoping you will be happy with him...

maybe our love story is a failure...
maybe your love was not strong enough...
but MY LOVE WAS ALWAYS TRUE....

ini bukan cerita kaw, for you to get angry bcoz i post it here...
THIS IS MY STORY,MY LIFE,MY LOVE AND ITS MY BLOODY WISH!

and nasihat aku kat kaw...
PLEASE,
LOVE ONLY ONE AND LOVE THE ONLY ONE!

i'M Just Some Stranger.

Assalamualaikum...
Hey Everyone...
i'M Saif Ali Khan...
and That's My Real Name!
i'M 17 years old - 2011...

Kalau nak cerita pasal aku,
takde la Famous mane pun..
aku tak ramai kawan macam korang semua...
sebab tue aku selalu lepak seorang2 kat taman...
(laaayan jiwa kononnyer)..
tapi betul laa...

Dulu orang sume tak rapat ngan aku....
sebab aku BAJET,TAKDE MASA SEBAB KERJA...pizza PASTI!
HAHA...dulu laa...
Semenjak aku join dengan kawan2 aku yang dah jadi a part of my life..
Bob,Asma,Napie,Muz,Pendek,Ilya and Sue DLL,
makin lama aku lepak ngan dorang,
makin jadi GEDIK PLAK AKU...
tapi yang penting aku sayang dorang...
IF YOU ARE AGAINST THEM, THEN YOU ARE AGAINST ME TOO..

And as everyone does,
aku pun pernah jatuh cinta...
kadang2 bikin panas gak dia tue...
tapi marah2 pun,
I STILL LOVE YOU,BABY..
For Me, You are the one...the only one...

Kehidupan Aku Mula Menjadi MENARIK lepas aku jumpe orang2 yang aku sayang nie...
walaupun tak menarik mana permulaan cerita aku...
tapi i think,

it doesn't matter how our life starts,
all that matter's is,how we live it...
in fact,i love my life and i love the fact that i'M living it right!

and that's how my story goes...
haha...tq and tc till the next update...
~tata~